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[j3nii]

lord all fucking mighty.. =_=

i was gonna post this fully in depth look at MYSELF. but then.. i got lazy.. and i have stuff to do.. *bigfatsigh*

ugh. two hours of maths. i like derrivatives. ^_____________^ i hate logs. i hate sequences and series.. my msn is fucked up... -__________-"

geh. stupid boy crushes. ><" STUPID STUPID BOY CRUSHES.

 

i called your number the yesterday..at 12:18 i dont know if it was you using it anymore.. but you picked up.. and you didnt say anything. if it was you, you knew it was me.. because you stayed there. no words were spoken between us.. and it was like that for 14 minutes and 48 seconds.. i coughed a couple of times [ due to my overall sickness ] and shuffled about in bed because the reception was messy.. and i lay there .. just listening.. i could feel your presence.. we didnt say anything.. i felt so comforted by it.. i havent had this feeling for a long time.. i miss it so much.. i had things to say to you.. alot of things to say to you... i knew what to say.. but somehow we both knew i couldnt make the words come out of my mouth.. i tried to.. you could hear me inhale readying myself to fucking say everything that has been building up over time..but i couldnt.. i hesistated.. i didnt know if it would come out the way i wanted to..

lying there.. i felt at home.. 14 minutes and 48 seconds passed.. i hung up. and called again... after two rings you picked up again.. and we repeated this process.. i fell asleep at some stage.. because of my lack of sleep on the previous night but i woke up at around 11 minutes.. i wondered if you heard me snoring.. and i remembered you commenting on how you thought my snores were cute lol, i was so embarrassed.. and the silence continued.. until 14 minutes and 57 seconds.. i wonder what you were thinking.. and i wonder if it was you who was on the phone.. i wonder what you're doing right now..